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Matilda and I came back to her appartment a few minutes ago, I've spent some cash today :) Bought myself a ring (always wanted a ring but someone never gave me one :P ), a sweater, a top and some new shoes!! The shoes only costed 200SEK eventough I bought them at TopShop so I think it was money well spent.

Yesterday was great! I didn't shop anything but spending the entire day togehter with Matilda was fabulous :) We haven't spoken to eachother for very long for different reasons but you sure can't tell when we meet! It's like we've been together everyday all day long! 

Yep, now I'm sitting here in Matildas appartment fifteen minutes from Stockholm with a new haircut and a new sweater and with about 2000SEK spent :P

Had a great day anyway, this vacation is just what I need I can tell!

I'm sorry Anna, I didnä't realize that I was going to be away for so long, thank God for the phone :)

In about one hour the bus for Stockholm is leaving! I've had trouble sleeping tonight 'cause I'm so excited!! Can't wait! Have to try and eat some breakfast now!

Just got back from work, empty appartment as usual now a days! I shouldn't be sitting here, I have tons to do! I haven't packled my bag yet, I picked it up from Emelie just a minute ago (so it isn't really mine but borrowed :) ), I haven't even done the laundry and I'm afraid that I have a t-shirt or two in there that I want to bring :P Can't believe that I'll be gone for a week and three days! What will people do without me!? Or more likely, what will I do without you guys!? Probably have a great time together with friends I miss the most right now :)

So, I'm gonna see Matilda tomorrow for the first time in like ever!! I don't know why we don't hang out more, Stockholm isn't that far away.. I guess we have a lot going on in our lives right now the both of us. As you should in your twenties!

Anyway, I'm gonna pack my bag, do some laundry and then mom is coming to town so we are going for a swim together! Haven't done that in years! After that I'm gonna watch a movie with Daniel and Emelie, perhaps "Mamma Mia"?

"Angeleyes" is the best song right now btw! Download the Abba-collection now!

I've made lovely cinnamon buns for Aba's birthday and I have to say, they taste great!!

It's been a few days I know, haven't taken the time for this :P Sorry! But then again, there hasn't been any action going on either, it's hard to write about nothing.. I was working in the reception this Monday, had about 30 check-ins left when my shift was over around ten. There was snow-caos in Stockholm so my guests couldn't go from Stockholm to Ludvika. I also heard that some planes had to go to Gothenburg instead so we still had guests checking in tuesday morning.

Anna stayed at my place from Monday 'til Tuesday, was really nice with some company! We where supposed to watch "The Cronichles of Narnia Prince Caspian" but Anna fell asleep after about five minutes and I made it at least until the war before I fell asleep as well. We both woke up around one o'clock and went to bed instead. For some reason I slept like a baby, guess that I feel safe when there's someone else in the bed as well.

Yesterday I spent some time with my brother while Petra was getting a haircut. It's nice to see him once and again, he can give some good advises sometimes. But, no I'm not moving home and I'm definitly not getting a job at Säfsen. Been there done that :P Feels good to know that I have somewhere to go if things would get real bad, even if it isn't my first or fifth choice either for that matter.. We went to Borlänge and brought Anna and Sofie, we took the train home while brother and Petra went to Sala to buy a "new" car. When I got home Fredrik was here so we made ChiliconCarne and watch "War, Inc". Fredrik fell asleep instantly so I whatch the movie my self.. It was pretty good but not the best movie ever.. A so called Sunday-movie..

Today it's Aba's birthday, CONGRATULATIONS!! I'm going to bake for his party this evening so I have a lot to do now! Perhaps I'll have time for an update tonight!

Love to you!

What a day! After work I was so tired I tought I would faint! Took a long really really hot shower and went to bed. I fell asleep instantly! This new "get-myself-tired"-trick of mine seems to work, but I can't take a shower everytime I want to sleep, can I? Don't think it would do wonders for my skin I'm afraid.. Anyway, woke up around five and discovered that I had missed my alarm, a phonecall from my mom and a text from Anna. I have to sleep more often!

Picked up Anna at the station and went to the hotel where we waited for Matilda, then we had some food-shopping to do!! Chicken with rice and currysauce was one the menu, but have you tried to find a grilled chicken in the stores around here on a Sunday? We sure couldn't find any.. Bought chickenfillet instead and it tasted even better!

After dinner Matilda had to go home and study so Johanna came up instead to watch the movie "Mamma Mia" with us. I have to say, great film! It was really one of does happy-movies, it made me wanna dance and sing again! Oh, sometimes I really wish that I would have continued with my songinglessons, why did I ever quit?



So, here I am.. Sitting all by myself in the appartment (which I still haven't payed way to much attention to) and don't feel tired at all.. Anna was supposed to stay here with me this week but I can understand why her family wants her at home right now.. I wish my family lived some where else, then I would have left allready. But, I can't move back to Fredriksberg, what would I do there? I would have to much time to think over my life and my decissions and I don't think I can cope with that right now.. When am I even supposed to start packing my stuf? I don't know where to go and I hate living in boxes..

This wasn't what I had planned, not at all.. Its allready been over a week, haven't had my free-day yet. I don't know if I want one.. This just makes me confused.. First it's hi, then it isn't. I know what to do but at the same time I don't want to realize that I know.. Shit..

I can go home! Only one hour left.. Thanks for the company you guys :)

Well, I think I might be one of the most clumpsy persons in this country.. I finished work around eleven and sat down with some from the securitycompanies Nyx and Rapid and waited for Matilda. I have to say I was really tired but didn't want to miss the opportunity to try the jaccuzzi here on the hotell. The relax actually closes at ten o'clock but I figured that sence we weren't going to turn on the bubbles it wouldn't make a difference, this has also been a really slow weekend so we didn't have many guests staying here either.

Anyway, we went up to the relax around twelve and got in to the tub. It was only me and Matilda 'cause Kalle had to step in and work when I finished my shift. After about half an hour I wanted to make it a bit more cozy, so I turned on the lightening in the tub. The only problem was, and I couldn't possible know 'cause I haven't been in our relax before and I don't really have a jaccuzzi at home, that when I tought I only could turn on the light the entire jaccuzzi started bubbeling! I freaked, Matilda ran out of the bathroom (she had absolutely nothing to do with me pushing the wrong bottons!) and there we stood for a minute just jumping up and down wondering how we could turn the thing off! I have to say, that thing can really make some noice!

It all ended with me calling Kalle (who by the way wasn't all to happy about our bubbles!) and found out that once you've started the jaccuzzi up, there's no way to turn it off.. So we decided to take advantage of the situation and got in the tub again. There was bubbles for about 20 minutes.. Ups!

So, now I'm back here at work after about four hours of sleep, I really have to do something about this sleeping-issue that I've gotten.. Can't wait until tonight though! Anna is coming home and we are going to have a real girlsnight with good food and the movie "Mamma Mia". I think it might be good but I'm having a hard time picturing Matilda liking this movie :P

Booring! Am at work and it's so slow!! Kalle is here and acting all crazy, almost scary :P But at least I have someone to laugh with! We are perhaps and hopefully gonna take a bath when I've finished work. Not only me and Kalle though, that would be weird! Matilda is also joining us..

Considering when I got to bed yesterday I shouldn't be up right now :P But, I'm not tired.. Weird cause I should be.. Anna called me last night around four and we spoke for about 30 minutes about everything that's been going on in our lives. I'm glad I'm not alone in this :P So I've slept five hours tonight, that's enough right?

Fredrik and Daniel was here just a minute ago, Fredrik needed some clothes 'cause they are going to Älvdalen to do manly stuf :) Was nice to see Daniel again, he has been in Thailand for three weeks so he missed all the action thats been going on here at home :P Perhaps we can take a coffee together tomorrow?

I'm gonna call Matilda now and make sure she gets up, we are going to Borlänge to buy me some new shoes :)

This day just turned out better then I expected! I slept until ten and sat infront of the computer about an hour. Took care of the appartment and relaxed a bit.. I haven't told you guys but my lovely brother and father gave me a car as a consolation prize I guess, a red Mazda! Wasn't an expensive car but it's a car, a great car that I allready have fallen in love with :) I just love cars!

So anyway, I drove my new car downtown to the busstation, ordered my ticket to Stockholm (leaving in a week!) and then I went to the gym to get some fake-colour :) Laying there in the solarium really gets me relaxed, I even fell asleep for a minute! After that I drove to the hotel where Ylva was waiting for me. I got my first thai-massage ever and it felt so great! It's allways great to get a massage but this was something else! Stretching out muscles and getting your head, face, fingers and feet taken care of was just the best I've experienced for a long time!

After the massage I took a nice long hot shower, something I've started to do more and more often. I love taking showers so hot that my skins turns red and until I'm so exhausted that I fall asleep before even leaving the bathroom :)

At four o'clock I started work, it was slow and booring as it is most of the time theese days but work is work and allways will be work. There is allways something more exciting to do! Anyway, I went to Snowriver to pick up Aba and Johanna and had time to talk to Anna Dear on our way out. We haven't been spending enough time with eachother lately but we are bussy people  so :)

I had a drink or two at the hotel before Matilda, Arvid, Kalle, Niclas and I went home to my place for a drink. It was nice, I got to see Kalles hair for the first time ever I think :) Made me really excited ;) They left for Snowriver after about halfanhour, they where going to practise some gitars I think.. Anyway, Matilda and I had some time for girltalk before Filippe came up. Great guy but he still has a lot to learn :)

So, this thing we are trying didn't work today either but perhaps tomorrow?

Love all of my friends, you brighten up my days!

BTW, This picture is the background on my sell right now, makes me laugh really loud inside everytime I see it!

Haha I was supposed to get to bed early yesterday but things happened and I didn't want to sleep so Aba invited me to Snowriver, we watched "Big Daddy" (which allways will be a great movie!) and drank hot chocolate and eat Abas homemade lussekatter :) When I got home around one o'clock I was so tired that I fell asleep almost straight away! I just have to say, I have lovely friends! All of you are lovely and supportive! Couldn't wish for more!

Friday today, wish I could say this is the last workday this week but no, I'm working Saturday and Sunday and even Monday to :P A little tired of this but I only got myself to blame..

But you know, I'm almost looking forward to this day, I'm going to get some colour at the gym and then I'm going to get a 90 minutes long massage before work, can it get any better? I'm also working together with Kalle and Godefroid tonight so it won't be too bad.. Just need to give the appartment some love first, not way too much fun :P

Hope you'll have a great day, I'm sure gonna try!

Did you have to? This is harder for me then for you I'm sure so just.. Don't..

Yep, just got home from work a few minutes ago. It's kind of weird to come home to an empty appartment, it never was before.. It's so quiet.. But I'm playing Snow Patrols new album "A hundred million suns" very very loud to keep me company! I've also discovered a french singer named Soko and she is absolutely great. Really really angry but I like it, it fits me now :) Check her out at youtube!

Had a long day at work, think I finished at about 13 hours so I'm pleeced.. Need the money for my holiday! I'm going to Stocholm to meet Matilda for the first time in a very long time! After a weekend with her and Anna I'm going to Gothenburg to spend the rest of the week with my cousin and Annacarin, going to be lovely! I hope I can afford it :/

I'm starting to realize that this probably is for the best. All I see is people around me feeling sad about some relationship there in so perhaps it's best to stay out of relationships? I don't know.. Does anyone know for sure? Anyhow, I know what I'm going to wish as a christmas present! A tattoo!! I've allways wanted one, can't wait any longer! Now is really the time to do the tattoo I've been looking at, fits me perfect!

I was supposed to go to the gym today but I'm so very tired! Didn't go to sleep until like one o'clock and the alarm went off at 5.45 this morning :P Don't start work until four tomorrow afternoon so I'm going to spend some time on the appartment, it really needs some love right now :)

Hope you all are having a great evening!!
Lots of love!

I'm having a really slow day today, just makes me really tired.. Talked to my cousin yesterday, can't wait until I'm going to Gothenburg to see her! A shorter get-away is just what I need! I'm probably working all day today but I'll give you an update tonight!

So, I have ones again decided to get myself a blog. I don't know if I have way to much to write about but it's a good way to ventilate my system.. I've also made a few changes, as you might have noticed I'm writing in english.  Don't know if I'll continue to forever but I'm giving it a try. I'm also sticking to this white boring colour, makes it look more neet :P

A lot has happened over the last few weeks so I guess this is a good time to start writing again. I'm single. Yep, that's the biggest change.. Can't talk about the other ones just yet but I'll get to those later..

So, after three years together we decided that what we had wasn't really enough anymore. Sad but true. It's really hard to realize that the feelings you once had for eachother just isn't there anymore. I guess we could have worked on it but at this age you don't want to work for it, if it's ment to be it's ment to be. So we aren't ment to be.. I wish I could explain in a simple way what went wrong but this isn't the place to tell and now isn't the time. Maybe later, in the future when it's not so fresh anymore..

The thing that hurts isn't that I'm losing my boyfriend, in a way I'm losing one of my best friends. Perhaps we'll be able to hang out, but just not now.. There'll allways be a place for him anywway, I don't think you can do anything to change that.

I have to take a shower now and go to bed really, but I'll probably just watch a movie and fall asleep on the coutch.
Love to you!